Sorry

Firstly let me apologise for there being no blog post last week, it’s the first time in a couple of years that there hasn’t been a post published.

The last week has been pretty tough for me both emotionally and physically. Shingles has kicked my butt before contracting shingles I was pretty naive about it thinking it was just a painful rash. I couldn’t have been more wrong, it has wiped me out completely. I feel constantly as if I am at the tail end of a nasty dose of flu, exhausted no matter how much I rest / sleep and just pretty sorry for myself. I am also suffering from nerve pain which runs from my back to under my right breast, which has been intensifying over the last few days.  From the various websites I have read I can look forward to feeling shitty  for 4-6 weeks.

Also last Wednesday was our friend's funeral, I am glad we attended and got to say goodbye but the grief again has hit me like a sledge hammer. I was left pretty low on Thursday and it’s a feeling that won’t shift. There is an Andrew shaped hole in everyone who ever met him lives, that will never be filled.

I have been trying to rest and recuperate ever since. Presently I have lost my blogging mojo, I am hoping as I begin to get over Shingles it will return. I just need to learn to pace myself and remember I have been “normal” sick on top of chronically sick so hence the very short blog post.